Dear friends, family and anyone else whom I have regular interaction with:
I have experienced some things that I wish to speak to.
Now, if I haven’t told you this already, I’ll let you know now: I am currently training for my very first fitness competition in April.
Forgive my passive-aggressive tone, but I need to get this off my chest. I am not complaining – I am merely making myself crystal clear for those who may not understand, so I do not need to repeat myself.
For those of you who are not aware of the terms and conditions or what it is like to train for a fitness competition, I’ll give you a little sneak peek into my daily life.
6:00AM: Wake up to get ready for my full-time, 9 to 5 job. (Including my commute, my job is really 7:30AM – 6:00PM)
7:00AM: Make 6-7 egg whites plus 1/2-2/3 cup of oats. Consume before 7:30 when I need to leave for my train.
8:40AM: Arrive at work. Proceed to, well, work.
10:00AM: Eat second meal. Usually chicken and almonds, chicken and sweet potato or beef and rice. Depends on the day.
1:00PM: Eat third meal. Usually eggs and oats or fish and oats.
4:00PM: Eat fourth meal. Usally chicken and a natural nut butter. Or chicken and sweet potato.
5:00PM: Leave work to catch train to get home.
6:00PM: Arrive home. Unload all of my work stuff, clean Tupperwares from the day, dress for the gym, clean room, etc. Depending on my fifth meal, I will start prep for dinner at 6:30PM.
7:00PM: Eat fifth meal. Usually egg whites or turkey. (Or if it’s a Friday or Saturday evening, I get a cheat meal. Yay! Best nights of the week!)
7:30PM: Head to the gym.
7:45PM: Start work out. (Unless it is my off day, I still do 45 minutes of cardio plus an ab workout at home. But on Wednesdays, I do my meal prep for the rest of the week.)
9:00PM: Arrive home from work out. Shower, pack lunch(es) for the next day.
10:00PM: Drink a protein shake if I’m still hungry. (I usually am.)
10:30PM: Try to read a little if I can keep my eyes open or catch up on my television shows. (I am so behind, which kind of drives me nuts. I think I am slightly neurotic about television shows. Ha!
11:00PM: NEED TO GO TO SLEEP SO I AM NOT A ZOMBIE THE NEXT DAY. (Life is hard when you’re off the sauce a.k.a. coffee with milk/cream and sugar. Black coffee is less comforting. Ha!)
And it all starts again the next day. My routine varies on Saturdays and Sundays of course. Saturdays I have more free time after my work out, but I usually am driving around grocery shopping for the best deals. I try to be social on those days, but most of the time, I just want to relax and do my thing. Sundays I have to do my food prep for the first three days of the week: I hate Sundays. Sundays are spent in the kitchen weighing meat and measuring rice and quinoa. Sundays are surrounded by labelled Tupperwares so I can keep organized and making a tally of how much fish I need to buy for the coming week.
So after I have explained my life for the past couple of weeks and for future weeks, I need you all to understand something. Forgive me, for being selfish for a short 4 months of my life. I will try to text you to say hello (mainly at work, so shhh!) or shoot you an email to get a catch up. But I apologize for not being able to commit to any sort of social event, because I am just too damn tired.
“You should really make time for yourself though! You’re going to drive yourself crazy!”
“You should have time for a short phone chat. You have a spare 10 minutes, I’m sure!”
I’m sorry, but I am going to laugh at you for saying this.
Unless you have personally trained for a fitness competition, you have no idea what kind of discipline and organization I must have to seriously prepare for this event. Unless you are truly busy, I am going to have to tell you, no, I do not have time for a short phone chat with the spare 10 minutes I have daily to myself where I can relax and collect my thoughts and just wind down after a hard training session at the gym including a long day at work.
I am also going to share with you that — guess what? — I am an introvert. I need to be alone for a small amount of my day or I will turn into a grizzly bear. I cannot fully relax when I am talking on the phone or engaging in a text conversation.
If you cannot understand that I will be selfish for 4 months of my life, then again, I’m sorry, but I cannot call you the true friend I think you are.
I need support right now. I do not an unnecessary nag or extra stress on me, because you feel neglected. I would love to have a social life right now! SO many exciting things happening. But my life is consumed my training right now — training for a goal, a challenge, a dream, that I have already put so much effort into.
And I’m happy about that.
So to summarize, I would appreciate it if you understood where I’m coming from, but if you don’t, that’s fine. Just please do not add any unnecessary stress to my already jam-packed life.
See you in May.